A second look…

Perhaps I didn't give myself enough credit in my last post.  And certainly not the post before that.  I'd driveled on about snakes and failure, respectively, but I hadn't truly shed any light on exactly how far I have come. All it takes is a look back.  If knowledge is power (and it is), then …

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Time Capsule: the first year (sort of) post-narcissism

It feels like I've failed, but I've succeeded. It also feels like I've succeeded, but I've failed. On the one hand, I have successfully extricated my heart and its emotions from all of the pathological narcissists / psychopaths in my life.  The peptide bonds and my addiction to them have been broken.  Although the divorce …

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Don’t jump the gun.

It's tempting, I know - beginning to consider jumping back into the dating pool again immediately after untangling yourself from a narcissistic or psychopathic relationship.  It's as if we might feel somehow empowered by seeking out another mate, a sign of recovery if we can put ourselves back out there and reignite the ability to …

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When the rain washes you clean you’ll know.

I write this from the makeshift-and-surprisingly-homey home office of my spirit-brother - yes, the very same one who broke my heart nearly 8 months ago, only to level up with me once I'd put said heart back together again, and then go one (or more) step(s) further yet and come through for me when I …

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An average day in the life with a narcissist / psychopath

3:30-5:30am: Wake up instantly, for any reason, or none at all.  You may simply be Done Sleeping.  Or you may find yourself in a state of semi-paralyzing fear about something, such as the state of your finances, or whether the psychopath / narcissist is Misbehaving again. This Misbehavior you fear is a repeated pattern - …

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