Validation first…

Chances are really good that when you first started to notice something "off" about your partner ("off" enough that you couldn't shove it under the rug any longer), you probably didn't think "narcissist!" right away. If you're like me, you might've worked down a working differential-diagnosis list.  "Maybe he's got depression", "maybe it's ADHD", "maybe …

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Nourishing vs Narcissism

In the last post, I talked about nourishment, of the soul/spirit variety.  This is crucial for anyone, a basic fundamental need.  However, it's absolutely essential for anyone recovering from a narcissistic relationship (or those still in one, for any one of many legitimate reasons), to shift this concept into primary focus. Most survivors of narcissistic …

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‘Who nourishes _you_?’

The question stopped me cold, during last week's therapy session. I had to stop and think.  The mind goes down a list, starting with partners (plural - one ex and one husband) first.  When you're just coming off of the addiction that is a narcissistic relationship, your mind is wired to automatically think of them …

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The yin-yang weekend

Hi, gorgeous ones, how was your weekend?  Weekends--they mean different things to different people, elicit different emotions, don't they?  They do for everyone, and they may (or may not) hold different meanings for those surviving narcissism, or having to live with it (in my case, both).  Weekends could bring sighs of relief, feelings of loneliness, …

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Slipping and falling…and then picking myself back up again

Please forgive me, gorgeous ones; I'm still unpacking and processing and analyzing and doing all the things that empaths and codependents do in addiction recovery from a narcissistic relationship. The path to that recovery is not always linear; in fact, it rarely is.  Translation: we're going to slip and fall.  We're going to backtrack, regress. …

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Acute phase survival kit

The last post was very left-brain of me, and this one might be, too. I'm talking solutions, after all. The acute phase is just what it sounds like...the hours, days, weeks, maybe even months, after severing a relationship with a narcissist.  You're damned if you do, and damned if you don't.  Everything is painful, a …

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When one day feels like the last…until…

Yesterday got away from me.  Ever since I'd first fallen in love, they've tended to do that.  Even at almost a week into this process, the grieving hadn't gotten any easier.  It was like a Groundhog Day nightmare, where the same oceans of emotions and grief cycles kept repeating themselves.  During these, I cried, audibly, …

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