Don’t jump the gun.

It's tempting, I know - beginning to consider jumping back into the dating pool again immediately after untangling yourself from a narcissistic or psychopathic relationship.  It's as if we might feel somehow empowered by seeking out another mate, a sign of recovery if we can put ourselves back out there and reignite the ability to …

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I’m a person too

I've reached the stage (of what, I'm not exactly sure) where the relentless burning desire to investigate and discover has been replaced with a mere mild curiosity that only floats through my mind occasionally.  Thinking about my soon-to-be-ex and his daily activities is almost like checking Facebook; it's no longer a compulsion, but a purely …

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Another turning point…

This morning, there was another shift from within.  It was almost as if I'm beginning to stand a little beside myself, little by little.  An inch here, and then another.  Sort of a dissociation from the Old Me, in phases. It's not a pathological type of personality dissociation.  It's not a denial of--nor a refusal …

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Not my first rodeo…

On Saturday, my world changed.  It was a tiny shift, but an important one.  I'd gotten together with my Amazing Bestie, and we went walking around outside.  This has been an activity that has historically stimulated and brought forward my introspective side.  Random thoughts pop into my head, and random dots connect, aligning seamlessly and …

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Settling vs Self-Confidence

My narcissistic relationships (which is all of my relationships to date) have always involved a lot of Settling.  They may seem perfect (or even maybe not) at first, but it isn't long before red flags start to poke through the surface.  These red flags might be causing all kinds of ruckus deep inside, but that …

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Slipping and falling…and then picking myself back up again

Please forgive me, gorgeous ones; I'm still unpacking and processing and analyzing and doing all the things that empaths and codependents do in addiction recovery from a narcissistic relationship. The path to that recovery is not always linear; in fact, it rarely is.  Translation: we're going to slip and fall.  We're going to backtrack, regress. …

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